19 November 2005 @ 11:26 am
It's Too Noisy To Be So Quiet, Damn It!  
... it's a bit quiet here at the moment, isn't it?

LJ, I mean. Not my house. My house is not quiet at all, for reasons I am going to go into soon enough. But yeah. Here? A bit quiet ([livejournal.com profile] quentin_w, whom I respect mightily for Keeping The Standard Flying, aside). I should probably say something and banish the silence a little. Haven't posted myself for three days. Well, I was suffering from having the ever-notorious Nothing To Say, which may go some way toi explaining it. I guess it's just a boring time of year or something, because it's not like I'm exactly overburdened with stuff to do at the moment.

*remembers she has about a ton - well, three or four comments to reply from and resolves to do them just as soon as she can.*

Anyway. My landlady's having replacement windows fitted. Oh joy. I was woken at around half eight this morning, from a dream I can't remember for the life of me but am absolutely convinced was about Ken - again, what has that boy done to my brain? Whatever it is, I LIKE it! - by what sounded like someone being murdered in the room next door, all to the soothing strains of Heart FM. Needless to say, I found this very annoying indeed. I hate Heart FM. Why do builders, decorators and the like always seem to have the most woeful taste in music? No, I'm not expecting them to want to work whilst Obsessively Listening To 'Moonflower' in the way I seem to have managed to do only too often, but why do we never see people painting rooms whilst listening to Rachmaninoff?

I lay there for a while feeling massively jealous that I hadn't written 'Bountiful Autumn' because I'm not [livejournal.com profile] kay_cricketed and can't write like her, which pains me, and finally managed to drift back to sleep for a while. When I woke up, I was still feeling massively jealous that I hadn't written 'Bountiful Autumn', but I was at least marginally more rested. The noise has eased off a bit now, but it's still far too damned loud in my bedroom, so it's chased me down here to go online and do pointless things. Forget sleep. I'll just have to get a nap in later, when the builders go home. I'm hoping they'll knock off when it gets too dark to see.

... read something random last night in a reproduction of a Victorian book of manners I seem to have ended up owning, about the uncouthness of grinning. Spent five minutes in happy puddle of fangirl goo thinking about how CUTE Ken looks when he grins.

Need to write more of 'Seuche'. Have a small idea for how I'm going to end Chapter 23 and I think it's cute, and I won't be able to write that until I've written the rest of it. Besides, I want to get back to action scenes. I've been waiting all fic for wanton chaos, and damn me now I'm getting near to it I'm getting antsy!

Speaking of fanfic (again): I CAVED TO THE PRESSURE!

Yup. Last night. Opened account at Pit of Shagging Voles, as I guess we should call adultfanfiction.net never mind that I hate the site's interface and think it harbors, if that's possible, even more crap than the Pit itself, simply because I needed somewhere to put that SchuKen fic so it could actually be read - I know where my webpage stands in the estimation of most of the rest of the internets. Though I don't think I'll be archiving anything else there since 'Seuche', 'A step forward into night' and 'Resurgence' so far appear to have escaped ff.net's Think of The Children crusade - unless of course I find myself writing more SchuKen non-con, that is, or get the confidence to write up the million and one instances of Youji x Ken porn I have stuck in my brain. Besides (unlike some ficcers out there) I am not such a tart for reviews I'm going to archive everything remotely adult-oriented that I've already got up at The Pit.

Anyway: here I am. As if the pen name wasn't enough of a clue. Revel in my not-so-secret shame!

... well, you know how it is when you want people to actually, you know, read the things you've written, right? I have no idea if anyone actually gets fic off my homepage, for a start and besides, I've decided that (content aside) I think I did okay with that fic after all. Someone else out there has to want to read it, damn it all!

Ooh. I think this is long enough to be called an 'update'. But it's still too noisy to go upstairs! Maybe I'll do a meme or two in a bit, then. Backdate them or somesuch. Answer a few comments and the like. Play with That Goddamned Korean Doll Site. There has to be some kind of advantage to be found in being deafened out of my bedroom, right?
 
 
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Current Music: touch your heart - devil hunter yoko
 
 
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[identity profile] vermachtnis.livejournal.com on November 21st, 2005 06:51 am (UTC)
*makes noise*

Sorry, I've been playing Warcraft solidly for the past... oh, four days, which would explain my lack of postingness.

I'm jealous of [livejournal.com profile] kay_cricketed's writing too. It's just so fuzzy.

Ah, you've posted the SchuKen at the Pit of Shagging Voles- which, I might add, is a great name for that site. And its layout still looks atrocious to me. Erk. It's okay, it's good to cave to the pressure sometimes [read: all the time].
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[identity profile] sevendials.livejournal.com on November 21st, 2005 11:27 pm (UTC)
Whee! Noise!

It's always good to know one's friends are still out there and activating. Especially seeing as I don't play Warcraft and am almost glad I don't because I waste quite enough time as it is. Example? I spent practically the entire weekend in a fangirl coma, being dangerously obsessed with Ken. Like I needed to encourage myself any more.



The Pit of Shagging Voles (and it deserves that name, if you ask me) has a layout that looks utterly horrid and eye-burningly abysmal to me, and don't even get me started on how gawdawful its upload script is - it really makes me appreciate the way we upload fic to The (original) Pit. And the way that site's laid out. I just need to know that someone else out there's actually read the damned fic, and I daren't risk putting it up anywhere other than an adult fanfic archive - even if I get the feeling that WELL over half the people who visit and post there are still in high school - perhaps because it's blatantly an adult fanfic. I don't think anything else I've written really counts as 'adult', but I think that thing does.

I want to be able to write like [livejournal.com profile] kay_cricketed. She's just so good at creating an atmosphere. At providing fuzzly love. At just providing everything a fangirl needs to get engrossed. I don't know Everworld from any other fantasy series out there and yet every time she posts an EW fic, I read it. I even read her Harry Potter stuff. Because she's JUST THAT GOOD.

Anyway. Must go now as I'm cold, tired and hungry so need a jumper, sleep and food. Though maybe not precisely in that order.
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[identity profile] kay-cricketed.livejournal.com on November 26th, 2005 06:14 am (UTC)
I've had a dream about Ken before! He was in it and he was "The Guide" on my, erm, quest-thingy. I get a lot of weird repeating dreams where I'm a dark-haired girl in black searching for treasure. But it's never the RIGHT treasure. O.o

Anyway, Ken was a Guide once, and he led me to the secret underground tunnel full of gold, and kicked off the raft that floated in the river down there. XD And I don't remember what he told me, but it was creepy, because when I turned around to answer all these black vines like in a tree trunk had started to cover his face.

... ANYWAY.

*bright, awkward red* You shouldn't be jealous, seeing as you inspired it. Also, this is backwards. I'M the one usually jealous of YOU for being able to write brilliant stuff like Seuche. XD I sit at the computer and tell myself, "COME ON. Miss Laila can write an amazing and coherent epic like that, so why can't you finish a three-part fic? Aaarrgghh, YOU WILL NEVER BE A WRITER." And then I pout. And worship you for a while. And then go back to staring at the monitor. XD

Ooohh, adultfanficton.net is evil, but at least it's a place lots of people go. *approves* I'll have to review it. Waaah, because it's sad if no one else reads the brilliant Ken torture... *_* SOOOOO YUMMY.

*fangirls more*

I love you madly. ♥
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[identity profile] sevendials.livejournal.com on November 26th, 2005 10:30 pm (UTC)
*clings* whee, so many comments! If only i wasn't too tired to answer most of them. Ack, getting no sleep then doing 12-hour shifts is bad.

My Ken dreams... well, you're better off not knowing in what context I've dreamt about Ken before now. He's seriously done just about everything and then some simply because my brain is a weird place. I even had one cheesy porno one which also involved Youji. More often than not he seems to be getting into serious trouble, being horribly menaced by someone or something, or he ends up killing things at random. Which is perhaps what we'd expect from Ken.

I get weird repeating dreams as well. I can't remember any of them right now, but I know I have loads of dreams that feel thematically similar. And that's weird.

Your dreams are crazy like mine! That does sound creepy. I occasionally have creepy dreams full of medical imagery, hideous 'treatments' and galleries full of preserved deformed vaguely human things. I blame the job.

... but the first-ever Ken dream I actually remembered featured him and Youji trying to get a seriously injured child to hospital, then ending up on the run because someone thought he'd been the one who'd hurt her, and then things just got trippy and conceptual and he ended up on a hillside somewhere trying to evade the police at some kind of festival. The last one he was having trouble with incoming tides and a drastically sloping beach (which, now I think about it, is something I've dreamt about a number of times). Who'd want my brain, huh?

I am jealous though, because I wish I'd written it. That fic is just fuzzy and love and oh my God Youji. Ken. SO CUTE. I loved, loved, loved that bit with Youji and flirting by making a bouquet. Which Ken is not allowed to put aconite in. Oh, god, and the bit with the coffee filters. It's little things like that which prostrate me and make me squeal. I really don't understand (and I mean this quite honestly) how come someone like you can possibly be jealous of me when your own writing is so damned good. I can only marvel. Really.

AFF.net is the fount of so much that is bad, but at least I now know there's somewhere people visit where they cxan actually go and read it. Beides which, there's so much cliche rape fiction on there I thought it was worth taking the opposite view, namely that rape is rape and therefore horrible and not something that should be eroticized or used as an excuse for cliche make-up sex. So yeah. That's me.

... but why do I like torturing Ken so much? And what is it about angsty SchuKen non-con that has me even reading the terrible stuff just because it's angsty SchuKen non-con when I won't even do that with YoKen?

Aww. Thanks. But I love you too, you know. Because you're great. ♥
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[identity profile] kay-cricketed.livejournal.com on December 7th, 2005 06:37 pm (UTC)
... I love your dreams. XD XD XD You are brilliant asleep, as well, I think.

You know, I remember the first time I had a dream that involved bad porn between two male characters-- usually I dream about adventure or horror stuff, and always a lot of freakin' goblins. (WTF?) So this really knocked me off the bed in the morning. XD It wasn't even a pairing that made sense, was the thing, it was... like, Daisuke from Digimon and Kaoru from Evangelion or something.

Yay for Ken dreams! Whoo!

I actually wrote a longer scene with the flowers/flirting thing. But I cut it because it became a long drabble in itself, and I wanted to fit it with the story. ^^;; You didn't miss much. Just more Yohji "subtle" flirting with flower names. Pfft.

And see, I don't think I'm that good! *awkwardly waves hand* See, I LOVE your writing, and a lot of other people have your same... just... stunning, gobsmacking writing abilities, so I tend to feel embarrassed no matter how much I put out, even though I enjoy writing too much to ever stop. I've still got a lot of stuff I need to work on, things you've already mastered, like structure and space and making it flow for long periods so naturally with the dialogue and descriptions... and you characterizations, really, honestly kill me dead each time.

AFF has pearls in a field of garbage sometimes. XD So we'll count you in those.

(... squee, yay for Tortured!Ken.) ♥
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