Oh, so once again I haven't been updating. I blame the Ken in a hole fic (26 pages, 20,000 words,
still clamoring for attention like a bitch.) I'm going to have to take the time someday soon and not go online for a day or so, just sit down and
write this little bastard so that I can say it's done. God damn it, and to think when I first had this idea it seemed like such a simple little angst fic... I'm not going to finish this thing, it's going to be
abandoned. And it'll deserve it.
I'm hoping this post will be backdated sometime soon because I feel like I have lots of other things I should be putting in this space that aren't as tedious. Until then, well: I wanted to do this, so here: have another meme.
This is a pretty simple meme, all told: kind of an 'answer the question' deal that doesn't involve an mp3 player or going to memegen and looking for things about Mary Sues or uploading things to Photobucket, something I generally do with no provocation whatsoever, or all the usual general lunacy that memes involve. (It's also not the drabble meme which I would like to do but feel I'd suck at.) It's been a long time since I did a meme which was as outright simple as this which didn't involve fandom. That being the case, I guess at least some of this information might come as a surprise to some of you, which is why this isn't backdated. Yet.
Meme ganked from
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1. Your Middle Name:Is now my first name, because my original forename makes me sound like something fey in a lawn dress and a straw bonnet who sulks and pouts her way through an Anthony Trollope novel before ultimately marrying the local vicar. It just didn't suit me. I've been planning to start going by my middle name since I came to London, just didn't get round to it in college.
2. Age:Just turned twenty-seven, and thank you to everyone who left me birthday wishes! ♥ Update on my birthday itself is probably coming as soon as I can be bothered to upload the pictures to Photobucket.
3. Single or Taken:Ask
rokesmith. Okay, taken.
4. Favorite Movie:My favorite movie of the now is
Star Trek XI. Not just a good
Star Trek movie, but a fantastic film in its own right. Go and see it. My favorite movie of all time? Absolutely refuses to be narrowed down because I've seen rather too many movies, so here's the roll call of something resembling a Top Ten, in alphabetical order in an attempt to impose some kind of order on this anarchy, and leaving anime out of it because I'd never get anywhere that way:
American Beauty,
Bowling for Columbine,
The Blue Angel,
Chungking Express,
Duck Soup,
Downfall, the original
Italian Job,
Playtime, the three proper
Star Wars movies especially
The Empire Strikes Back, and
The Truman Show. And just be thankful you didn't ask what my favorite book is.
5. Favorite Song or Album:I don't have one. Music for me is so much about what kind of mood I'm in and what I'm doing at the time, so while I have a lot of songs I absolutely
love - there are far too many to list, actually, because whatever I put down I know I'd be forgetting like, twenty more at least - I couldn't really call any of them my absolute favorite because too much depends on external influences. Well... except
Moonflower, which is one of the most depressing cheerful-sounding songs I have ever heard and thus suits Ken down to the ground. Yeah.
6. Favorite Band/Artist:GAAAAH GOD DAMMIT MEME.
Stop asking me about favorites, this never ends well. You're getting Tomokazu Seki and liking it as anything else would require ten minutes of agonizing. So there.
7. Dirty or Clean:I like being clean and clean things, but I absolutely despise the process of cleaning or getting things clean, so while in theory I love cleanliness, in practice I'm often rather more
schmutzig than I would like. Including right now OH GOD DAMMIT I NEED A SHOWER LIKE IMMEDIATELY or my landlady will come back and put the sprinkler on and there'll be no water pressure asgfdsgh--
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:No tattoos, though I did consider getting one a while back - the Chinese character for 'woman' on my shoulder - but decided not to because lol fat girls with tattoos. I do have three ear piercings on each side, though, all through the lobe. I want a cartilage piercing but not while job hunting and I'm getting a bit old anyway. I also used to have an eyebrow ring when I was 19, but it grew out. Also, wet hair. I told you I needed a shower.
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?Depends. If you're
kay_cricketed we met briefly in London and it was awesome, if you're
rokesmith you live about two miles away and you're dating me for some reason. For everyone else it's a big fat No.
10. What's your philosophy on life?Ken Hidaka is adorable. No, I can't do that. Right, if it is made of meat that means it must be edible. No? Okay, if it's possible to get screwed over by an institution you're relying on, it will happen not just soon but immediately, and it will be me that it happens to. No, that doesn't work either. Uh... it is never too early to take a nap, and never too late either? Um, actually I don't think I have one. I might have done as an idealistic young thing but I've largely been reduced to muddling through and hoping it'll all make sense in hindsight, which right now it really doesn't. Which means I probably haven't managed to get shot of the optimism entirely. Wait, what about the more moving parts there are the more likely it is that something'll go wrong? That sounds about right.
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?... I suffer from a depressive illness that never quite goes away. What do you damn well think?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?I was a student nurse, we get quite good at being closed-mouthed around people if we think they genuinely don't need to know something right now. I'm a compulsive confessor and generally not very good with secrets, especially not if they're about things
I feel guilty over, but if I genuinely think there's a good reason to keep quiet about something I probably will.
13. What is your favorite memory of us?Depends who 'us' is. Questions like this make me wonder who started this meme and if it wasn't meant to go further than their own friends list.
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?Gaia Online. I have four accounts on a site for thirteen year olds and sign in daily. Also,
Moonflower.
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:I'm morbid and think quite frequently about suicide - but in the abstract. I myself am no suicide risk at all as I'm a coward and afraid of pain and death, but every single time I'm waiting for the Tube and the train's just pulling into the station, I think of the horribly telling phrase, '
services delayed due to passenger action', and think about what it must be like to throw yourself under a train, and how much it hurts and for how long, and am horribly aware that for a few brief seconds there is the
possibility of doing this. And I think this every. Single. Time. I catch a Tube train.
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?I want money - I don't care whether it's from a job or because someone has given me it. Ideally there would be lots of it, but as long as there's enough for me to be financially secure and actually live a little on top of that it would do me, I'm sick to death of worrying about money and buying damn near everything secondhand. I also want to go back to college and qualify either as an Operating Department Practitioner or (if money was no object and I could do the degree) a Radiographer. After that, I want to write my book series and publish it and have people tell me that it's as fantastic and awesome on the page as it is in my head. The end.
17. Can we get together and make a cake?As long as you buy the plane tickets and don't mind breathing in in order to fit in my postage-stamp-sized kitchen. And don't mind any of the following: 1. Ginger Sponge Cakes; 2. Fruit Cake, but not like really rich fruit cake where there's more fruit than cake, more like that Mr. Kipling Manor House stuff; 3. Anything with chocolate frosting.
18. Which country is your spiritual home?Um, probably England. There are lots of countries I'd like to visit, but like it or not (and often I don't), I really am British to the core.
19. What is your big weakness?Depression. It seriously gets in everywhere and colors everything and I wish to fuck it would go away.
20. Do you think I'm a good person?Depends who 'you' are. Who wrote this? Because if it was Kim Jong-Il or someone then no. If you're on my friends list, though, chances are it's because I think there's at least some good in you. (That or you like
Weiss Kreuz which could go either way, I guess.) Even if it's only because you're a funny Livejournal community about bad sex or are full of pretty photographs.
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?English, without a shadow of a doubt. I loved my English classed far more than I realized. If you'd asked me at the time, I'd probably have said my favorite classes were the 'piss about for no real reason' classes like art or design, but I knew I was going to take English at A-Level without even really having to think about it, which I guess says rather a lot about me. I sometimes wonder how differently my lifer would have worked out if I had gone to to English Literature at university instead of trying and failing to complete a Politics and Modern History degree. Probably not that different, actually; I'd still have been my unstable self.
22. Describe your accent:Unplaceable. I've been told I sound Australian on several occasions, which is a bit odd given that I have the kind of accent most Americans think middle-class English people should have, though perhaps a little less plummy.
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?Honestly? I'd change several things about a lot of the people I know, not least of whom would be myself.
24. What do you wear to sleep?Um... honestly, more or less anything as I have the ability to sleep more or less any time and any place as long as it's quiet enough and there's somewhere for me to lie down. If nightwear is actually going to be involved (which at least half the time it isn't) then I wear pajamas unless it's really hot, in which case I might go with a nightshirt.
25. Trousers or skirts?Both. I like wearing skirts - usually these are full and to just below the knee, because I happen to think I look a lot better in full 1950s-ish skirts than I do in shorter, tighter ones. I can be very girly and it makes me feel pretty and also I like to think I have good legs, but trousers are easier to bum around the place in without fearing upskirts, and also (weirdly) I find trousers much more comfortable to sleep in despite the fact that logically they should be a lot more restrictive. No, I don't get why either. Maybe it's because there's less fabric there.
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?Alcohol; I only like fictional smoking (but I think fictional smoking looks aesthetically awesome, and it's a useful prop for a writer). I've never tried smoking due to my asthma and I don't drink often or to excess, but I like a drink with a meal every now and then.
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!):That would depend on your personality, interests and temperament, and also which 'you' was being referred to. But if you looked amenable to it I'd probably do what I did for my birthday which is take you down the River Thames and go to Kew Gardens. I think there's something very special about London seen from the river, and everybody should go to Kew at least once before they die. Also, the London Eye. If anybody out there could be guilty of, in the words of Terry Pratchett, trying to gift-wrap a city it would be me, but it's not my fault London is awesome.
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?Does this count?
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