13 August 2005 @ 12:39 am
A Story What I Wroted All By Myself  
... or rather, a part of one. Yup, by hook or by crook I will finish this book fanfiction the length of New Mexico. I finished Chapter 21 last night (in Devon - what else is there to do late at night in darkest Devon?) and swore that I would update this fic as soon as possible come what may, and hey - I've got to do something to take my mind off this thing with the cat. I mean, I don't even live here most of the time. I don't really have the right to be the hysterical one. That wouldn't be fair on my mother: she at least has a genuine reason to feel really upset about this. I can be upset, sure, but I shouldn't be in her face about it. She's definitely going to be more lastingly upset than I am over this.

Anyway. That's enough of that. I don't want to wallow in misery over this - I'm supposed to be an adult, I should start trying to act like one. Thanks to everyone for listening to my venting my grief over my parents' poor dead cat. Please take this fic part as a token of my gratitude.

Seuche Chapter 17: Vertrauen

And if you don't like my fanfics then you can... um... you can make yourself a nice cup of tea?

Though if you don't like my fanfics you probably shouldn't be reading my livejournal as they're about the only interesting thing it has going for it and should instead be taking healthful enjoyment in getting to know your neighbors or taking long walks in the countrysi

I have to admit that - hold the front page - I actually like the way this chapter came out. It is full of angst. With any luck I will not be the only one who likes this chapter, because there is angst and arguing and Youji being worried and Ken all wet and depressed and there's enough emotional baggage in here to fill the hold of a 747. Maybe it's no bad thing I was so remiss about writing the last chapter and therefore got to post this chapter I actually like on a night when God knows I definitely needed a little bit of a lift.

Finally, as I've been feeling depressed and headachey and all in all rather low...

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look likedancey dancey
The MusicR&B
Quiz created with MemeGen!

I AM DANCING LIKE A MONKEY AND NOT TRIPPING ON MY ABSURDLY LONG HAIR. Yay.

R&B? Um... well, I guess I could be listening to Hikki. I like Hikki, and I guess you could say she was an R&B singer without stretching the term too much.

Sorry. But silly memes always do make me feel a little bit happier when I'm feeling low. As does listening to 'Moonflower' over and over and over and over and over until my brain begs for mercy. I guess I could have tweaked the source code so that my spazzy dancing woman with unfeasibly long hair was actually dancing to 'Moonflower', but what would the point of doing memes be if I played with the results to suit myself?

YAY 'Moonflower' I LOVE you when I am feeling down you lift me up. Perhaps it's a Ken thing.
 
 
Current Mood: headachey
Current Music: moonflower - seki tomokazu
 
 
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[identity profile] sevendials.livejournal.com on August 18th, 2005 01:50 pm (UTC)
... or rather, MORE angsty YoKen ficcage.

Though I must say the combination of angst and death and surviving and stuff does intrigue me insanely. I really want to get started on that, but I haven't yet decided on who I'm going to kill. Any ideas? Personally I think Omi would be worse, but I find it much easier to write for Omi (I'll admit, too, that I also like Omi rather better). Writing for Aya gives me headaches which is why I don't do it much - not that i need to when he's a Complete Fangirl Target and everyone writes for Aya. Under the circumstances, do I really want to lose Omi?

I like the fact there's a kitty there too. I can definitely see Ken secretly liking that kitty (I know I had him privately admit to secretly liking it in 'Stasis', for fangirl fun!), and maybe Omi too. Aya would never admit it even if he did - not even to the cat! Though I bet they all have their Needing a Kitty moments. Everyone needs kitties (my landlady's kitty is home and oh the fuzz, I LOVe him. He's being a bit standoffish right now but all the same... he's there, which is good). Wistful fangirl thinking or not I can see it happening, what with cats being so good for stress.

(Maybe I should have been really mean and had the cat end up in the closet too? That would have been even worse... and maybe I shouldn't have mentioned the aprons, but there's something fun about them all the same. Though it does amuse me that the Weiss boys go out in those aprons sometimes. It hardly seems the most logical choice of outerwear for a young man. But damn, they look good in them. I begin to see the appeal myself)

And in that case then, I will be sure to keep the Bad Influence thing up! Does the angst addiction count as a bad influence? :)
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[identity profile] kay-cricketed.livejournal.com on August 18th, 2005 10:57 pm (UTC)
Hmmmm. That IS difficult. *muses* Who to kill, who to kill... this being said, if you do decide to off Omi, Aya's an easy bit to write. He'll probably just run off to angst, sulk and brood for a long time, and then return looking like he doesn't give a shit. XD Well, maybe that's the cliche version... but honestly, I see it like that. And if you off Aya, you have to worry about what'll happen to the sister so to speak (erm, though it depends on the timeline).

Aaaahh, I don't know. I'm sure you'll think of something. *clings worshipfully*

Aawwww. Awwwww. Weiss hugging kitties makes me all gooey inside.

Aprons, closets and cats would have probably exploded my brain with the love. O.o It was probably best you didn't put the cat in there, too. Because... yes. Brain exploding. Not good. At all.

Angst addiction is definitely a Bad, Bad, Very Bad Influence. *_* I would like more, please.
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[identity profile] sevendials.livejournal.com on August 19th, 2005 11:37 pm (UTC)
I wish I could make up my mind on this issue because it's the only thing that's stopped me from getting well and truly stuck in to my Survivor!Deathfic!YoKen!Angst fun. If I stick with a close third-person and very much focus on Ken I won't have to do a lot of Aya anyway, but all the same, do i really want to off Omi when I find him a lot easier to characterize and suspect that losing him would have the team utterly falling apart in no time at all anyway?

And yeah, I would have to worry about Aya-chan if I was to off Aya. But that could be interesting too... *only writes 'Kapitel' fics* The dilemma of it all. But can't kill Ken. Or Youji. There'd be no fic if I did!

I love the idea of Ken and a cat. It's... gah. Just SO CUTE. The cute and fluff of it all gets into my head and turns me into a happy, giggling, gooey mess. I wish there was more art of Weiss with kitties. I wish I could actually draw so I could do justice to this picture idea I had of Ken holding a cat. But I can't. I write fanfic and that's about my limit.

Ah. Then it is a good thing the cat stayed out of the closet. Besides, if I'd put the cat in there too it might have been harder to get Youji to make his move. Oh the move. God damn, it's hard to write kissing scenes. Or I find it hard anyway. Cannot do sexy lemon to save my life. Took me three fics (three damned fics, mind) to get Youji and Ken to have sex... eesh. Kitties are cool, though. I love kitties. And Ken. Always love Ken.

I hear ya on the angst addiction. I just discovered the Oh-So-Awesome Sidara has written a very much Ken-oriented sequel/companion/whatever to a Schuldich fic I fell head over heels for (my only complaint is it's RanKen and there's too much fan-Japanese, but I'll deal for the sake of TEH AWESOME ANGST) and it makes me want to write more 'Seuche' because I love the angst. I absolutely love and adore and worship the angst. Which is good.

I will have to write fic and fill your brain with Bad Influence, then. I'm glad I found this fic. It makes me want to write ANGST. Go, angst!
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[identity profile] kay-cricketed.livejournal.com on August 20th, 2005 05:47 am (UTC)
Hmmm, you DO have a problem. And it's a hard one to consider, too. O.o Kill Aya or Omi? (Kill both! Leave only Ken and Youji to cuddle with each other! ... do not listen to these internal fangirl suggestions, okay?) I do like how you write your Omi an awful lot in Seuche, I must admit-- it would be a shame to lose that edge in this upcoming piece, especially if it could play a nice part in the story unfolding. Hmmmmmm.

I know what you mean about only writing Kapitel fic, too. ^^;; I like the timeline better. And Gluhen changes so much that I'm always reluctant to even try thinking about touching it with a ten foot pole... (I mean, it wasn't bad, but I liked the original series better.)

I knooow, there should be so much more art with Weiss and kitties! There's an official piece with them in pajamas, I think, lounging around with cats. But they aren't being as cuddly as they could be! I demand the fuzzy snuggles! As a rightful reward for our hard work and dedication to the WK realm, we deserve fuzzy snuggles!

... or nekkid Ken.

... but not both, because that disturbs me.

Ahem. Anyway. I might have to look up this Schuldich fic you like so much and its companion. *curious* I read a lot of WK, but I don't remember anything RanKen that had a particularly good Schu in it, unless you count the series in the future where Schwarz had succeeded in reviving the One. Or whatever it was. (It's been a long time since I remember reading that one... O.o)

Waaah! Good look on your fic! *beams* With your mad skillz, I'm sure you'll pull it off wonderfully with whatever you choose to do!





(... NO MORE FROSTED FLAKES.)
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[identity profile] sevendials.livejournal.com on August 22nd, 2005 01:39 pm (UTC)
Killing both would be excessive, I think. *knocks out inner-fangirl yelling about Angst and Cuddles* I admit I'm leaning toward killing Aya, for all losing Omi would be angstier, simply because of the 'Omi's easier to write' thing... besides which, I really like Omi, at least in Kapitel. He's such a sweetheart and I don't know if I can bring myself to kill him.

(And Omi was my first Weiss-Love back when I was eighteen, so...)

Gluhen... hm. Haven't actually seen it - the anime hasn't had an official release in the UK yet so I'm still going off my Kapitel fansubs - but I've heard it changes a lot, the plot sounds insane, Ken goes insane and the character designs look whacked. They're nice designs for the most part (ahemSchwarzahem), but they're not really right for the characters.

I know the official art piece you mean (yay, cats and pajamas). I've had that one lying round my hard drive for a while (Ken should probably not wear dark colors for preference; they make him look so slight it's scary) and it's cute. Thinking about it, I'm guessing the cats they're dealing with might be anime renditions of the breeds they're named after. I really think the cat Youji has draped round his neck might be a Balinese - they look rather like Siamese cats but their fur is longer. And most Abyssinians are red, and I think the cat staring out Aya is also red. So maybe that's it.

You're right, both would be disturbing? Hey, have you seen the official art which has the guys in towels and not much else? Love that, but I couldn't not love that.

That sounds like an interesting premise for a fic. The one you read, I mean. I'm curious as to that one. The sad thing about that fic and its companion is really, the Aya x Ken thing just doesn't quite work in the context it's put in and there's a lot of fan-Japanese in them. I hate fan-Japanese. Really. It's so annoying, because otherwise the fic's a well-written one. Good fiction shouldn't shoot itself in the foot like that because it's just too damned depressing. I mean a bad fic would have been bad regardless, but when a good fic can't quite pull off its pairing, it's sad. I think Ken ends out coming off as a bit of a doormat and though he's having a hellishly bad time in that fic, but I think he's got rather more spirit than he's been granted.

(I kind of get annoyed by Victimized!Ken fics sometimes, because he's slightly too beaten down. He's not angry enough about it and it seems wrong for him. It's a fine line on which we walk...)

Thanks for the luck! I appreciate it. I'm not exactly uninspired at the moment, but I'm having trouble settling to things. I'm having a 'who am I kidding I can actually write?' moment. Stupid of me... but I shall overcome!

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[identity profile] kay-cricketed.livejournal.com on August 25th, 2005 07:50 pm (UTC)
Gluhen has different character designs, yeah. They killed Youji. And about killed Omi, but I suppose we'll live. Aya got off okay. Ken turned... disturbingly pretty, but he doesn't always seem the same kind of person, so it makes me twitch.

Otherwise, the series isn't that bad. It has its moments, anyway.

(And by the way, when I say "kill," I only mean they really screwed over the character designs. Erm. Not kill kill, yanno?)

I like angry Ken better, too. *heart* Because I think Ken's the toughest out of all of them-- he lives in the real world more than the others sometimes, if that makes sense, and with the exception of Omi he has the best grounded personality. He's just a guy. A guy who had bad things happen to him, but he's surviving. I appreciate that the most. ♥

... Ken love suddenly attacks! MUST READ MORE KEN ANGST. *frantically runs to Seuche*

(... am so pathetic.)
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