It's not so much hard as just freaking tiring. I sit here in the LRC typing this, feeling like a zombie, contemplating three shifts starting on the morrow and wondering just how in the flaming Hell I am ever going to get together enough by tomorrow morning to manage to complete them... guh. I've wanted to do it since I was a kid, though, so that does help. At least I know why I'm going through all this.

(Though what I really really want to do is write, I want to be a nurse almost as badly, so whatever... and hey, a 'young writer' is one under the age of thirty-five, so I figure there's plenty of time to have a plot idea for something other than angsty YoKen fanfiction.)

I need to relax, though. I'm just not getting anything done fic-wise at the moment and it's really frustrating. I really want to write and I'm just too wound up to get anything really done. Of course I'm still writing on the way into work, but it's a rough draft and the transcription from page to screen just seems like such a chore. I swear I'll get something real done when I'm on holiday, but right now I just can't seem to make anything come. I just sit there staring at the screen and feeling my attention start to wander...

... I do still want to help out with your block as much as I can, but I'm so fried right now I'm even more stuck than you are. Sigh. I promise once I can actually think again I will start to think about something useful. Really. Honest. I mean, I can only write my stuff because I've had the outline for 'Seuche' knocking round my brain for over a year and I know it backwards.

Oh well. It'll get better. It's got to get better, right?