Oh. Oh dear.

I'm on a Schuldich x Ken kick. Why, I don't know.

There isn't a lot I can do about this either. Not only is this a massively uncommon pairing - even worse than Youji x Ken and man that's saying something - but I just can't find fan work to suit. Most of the fics I've seen with this pairing just aren't damn dark enough for me to really get into them. Too much hot sex, too little angst and torment. I like hot sex as much as the next girl, but in my heart of hearts I guess angst's more my kick. I like darkness and angst and torment when it involves Ken. This scares me, but hey, I don't like that pairing because I like them consensual. Consensual just doesn't sit right with them, character-wise.

I mean come on, Schuldich and Ken hate each other. Really hate each other. The only way I can see Ken ever wanting to be anywhere near Schuldich comes courtesy of the poor kid developing Stockholm Syndrome. Besides, if I want fluff I'll go read Youji x Ken fiction, thank you. Right now I want angst and I want torment and i want utterly uncompromising bleakness and I want it now.

And I can't freakin' well find any.

Okay, I admit it. Deep down inside I have the potential to be a MASSIVE AND UNAPOLOGETIC SLASH FANGIRL. The only reason I don't flip over more determinedly non-canon pairings is because most of them don't appeal to me, not because I have no interest in them. Though I like them in a canon kinda way - with bleakness and torment and the acknowledgement that hey, these guys totally and utterly loathe one another. Oh, the angst.

I was going to sign in on MSN tonight, even if it was only for about an hour or so (I've been at work today and I am very, very tired - blame the heat but I didn't get much sleep last night, so it wasn't a lot of fun going in to work today... and for that you can blame the heat again) but the Landlady's Son needs to use the comp and I need to be going. I'm on it far more often than he is, so it's really only fair that I bow out when he asks if he can have a go, too. Hence the reason this post is short and rambly: it was written in ten minutes flat more because I wanted to post today and posting is a good way for me to unwind after work and get out of Nurse Mode than because I had anything to actually say.

(Apart from declaring to the world my strange fondness for the strangeness that is Schuldich x Ken, of course. I also have a sneaking fondness for the idea of Ken and mild bondage and-- okay, laila, just you stop right there, absolutely nobody needs, let alone wants, to know these things!)

Yes, I even scare myself sometimes.

I should be around tomorrow, with any luck, when I will go on MSN and I will answer my comments and I will hopefully be able to post the draft of 'Entrapment' to 101_ficlets, too (there's nothing like ambition). Cross fingers touch wood and hope I don't die of exhaustion between now and then, or fall headfirst into a deep, dark and angst-filled Slash Pit from which there is no returning. Watch this space...