I have to be up in two hours if I'm going to be ready for my voluntary job on time.

Now, I had a nap yesterday evening at... I don't know when, but I got a couple of hours' sleep then, so I haven't been up for as long as I could have been. But I haven't been able to sleep since then. I've tried twice and both times I just lay there and was unable to even settle comfortably, let alone get any actual rest. I just lay there fidgeting and feeling really uncomfortable and awkward in my own body and I don't even know why. I just couldn't get any rest and there's no point staying there when all it's doing is upsetting me more.

Worse, there's nobody online I can whine about this to, so a whiny LJ entry it'll have to be. Sorry. But I already feel like crap because I'm so damn exhausted and I'm so frustrated by my inability to switch my brain off that I could just cry. I do not deal at all well with lack of sleep and even if I did get to sleep now, I'd still be running on empty all day and I'd probably be late for work, too. I just don't know what to do for the best and I'm cold and agitated and feeling deeply physically uncomfortable and I am so damn frustrated, I just want to SLEEP and even that's too much for me to hope for right now. Christ, I have enough problems with fatigue as it is without adding the after-effects of insomnia.

I'd go take a shower and see if it woke me up, but the shower's been broken for over a fortnight and it'd mean struggling with the stupid cheapass stethoscope bathtap deal that doesn't mix properly just to get clean hair.

What the fuck, world. Just - what the fuck. Go find someone else to pick on, please, I've had enough.

ETA 7:23 AM: Took a quick bath. Still don't feel very alert and yet there is absolutely no point in trying to get some sleep now. God, I am really not looking forward to going out today one little bitty bit.