At least vermachtnis is back.

This is a good fact of goodness and one on which I will no doubt have more extended comment to make when I get back from work tonight.

Work. Blah. God, I'm bored. I should be reading up on drugs outside of placement but hinestly I hate the place so much that it's all I can do to just put in the hours and go home. When I'm off-duty the last thing I want is to even have to think about the place for any length of time at all. It's gotten to the stage where even laundering my shirts strikes me as Too Depressing For Words.

Yeah. This is not a good thing.

I wish I had more drive when it comes to this placement. I'm worried about failing, but frankly my moentor seems to have such ridiculously high expectations of what a new nurse should be able to do it's getting absurd. I know I need to be doing more than I did in second year but for fuck's sake, I've not been on the wards for forty goddamn years. So what if I can't quite remember what random Neuro Drug X does OFFHAND?

I think she's probably going to fail me just because I haven't been nursing for at least 20 years and can't do all this backward, and that kind of saps my drive. It's like trying to work with my grandmother or something. She reminds me of my grandmother! Also not a good thing.

And I'm now worrying quite a lot about kay_cricketed. Probably wouldn't be if I wasn't in another country or know that she doesn't normally go this quiet. Especially not when back at home. I miss her.

Also? I would have said something a couple of days back but I've been making icons and have been far too busy wresting with Paint Shop Pro and trying to work out what to do with the picture that shrunk down to something x 80 and left an annoying gap at the bottom of the screen... thing. Shall do icon dump or something later because I want to show off. Also, I made more of those pairing icons like I needed any more. More on that later too.

All in all, I don't know why I'm updating except I haven't done lately. Damn you, icon making. DAMN YOU.