The Changing Face of Fangirlishness

[sevendials]

--oh, and yes, I have managed to upgrade my livejournal account but I've got to say, the changes only really take in the small matter of presentation. The content, for instance, is still exactly the same unreconstructed fangirl chaos that it always has been (random stuff about the frustratrions of writing fanfiction, manga and anime and the associated shounen-ai/yaoi fixation I've had for the past... ooh... seven years, my verging-on-the-scarily-obsessive thoughts on the subject of Ken Hidaka - all that kind of thing) interspersed with occasional rants about life in post-millennial Britain and proof positive that student nurses are amongst the Strangest People on the Planet.

But, looking on the positive side of this (not particularly) expensive upgrade, I have managed to got a nice new layout up as well as upload and use my All-New Obsessed Fangirl User Icons, so that's all good. No, it doesn't take much to make me happy, does it?

Too bad everyone and their dog uses the 'Component' layout, really.

Also, it has recently been brought to my attention that I really am a hopeless fangirl of the Ken Hidaka variety. There are three things I could do to cure this. Shoot myself in the head, get serious and expensive psychiatric help, or find some kind of an outlet for all this complete and hopeless fangirlishness so that I'm not boring my non-fangirl friends to tears or irritating them to the point that they'd contemplate strangling me for the sake of a bit of peace and quiet if it wasn't for the inconvenient ocean seperating me and them (I'm not quite this bad in real life - the name for that irritating state of affairs that occurs when I'm not online, writing fanfic or daydreaming - honest!). I didn't think I was a complete obsessive but obviously I am. Yes, I know, it's sad. Since I don't really want to shoot myself and I like being a fangirl loon, not to mention I don't have anywhere near the kind of money I'd need to take myself and my Ken obsession into analysis, that means I probably need to try and find some kind of an outlet for this. Maybe a peer group would help?

Okay, that completely blew my 'I'm a mature, sane, sensible, adult, functioning human being type person' cover, but what can I say? I never was any of those things, all this time I was just pretending. Now the truth is out: I'm a hopeless fangirl. I think I need to find some other obsessive fangirl lunatics like myself. The question is, where can I find one? An anime convention? The Forbidden Planet bookstore? The Maudsley psychiatric hospital?

Ah... I know. The Internet!

Comments

[vermachtnis.livejournal.com]

Let me just say this- all your Ken icons make me jealous! I want to be able to use tons of Ken icons. But alas, I'm a poor college student, and cannot afford the upgrade. Perhaps in a few months when I'm done being poor.

Obsessive fangirl lunatic here! I'm known to laugh randomly during class or stare off into space with a strange smile, and it's usually Ken's fault. So I feel your pain. But isn't being an obsessive fangirl lunatic fun than being non-fangirlish? I suppose I'll never know, since I've never been normal.

[sevendials.livejournal.com]

I upgraded mainly because I wanted to be able to use lots of Ken icons. One of my friends teases me about my obsession all the time, but I'm a happy idiot and just don't care. I like Ken and I don't see why I should waste my time making lots of icons if they don't have things I like on them. XD

Ah, we understand one another! That's good, and there I was worrying I was the only one. I do very similar things for a very similar reason. And I've not been normal since I was eleven and first discovered manga and anime, so I'm not the one to ask about what it's like to be a non-obsessed, non-lunatic non-fangirl. Honestly, I have absolutely no idea.

And yes, I space out in classes too (Ken's fault). I write my fanfic during really boring ones...

[vermachtnis.livejournal.com]

Seems like the best reason out there to upgrade. I can't think of a better one, truly.

Those normal people really don't know what they're missing.

I wish I could write during class, it would be a great use of time, but I'm paranoid about people looking over my shoulder and can't get comfortable.