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sevendials) wrote2005-12-14 05:16 pm
sevendials) wrote2005-12-14 05:16 pm
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You Have Fallen Victim to the MEME OF DEATH.
... 100 questions? Gah. Well, I guess I do kind of have the time to do this. Kind of.
I would try and say something funny to bracket this hellishly long meme with, but given that it is the meme of Satan, I think this post is going to be short but long. Because honestly, I'm filling this in retrospectively and I have spent quite long enough filling out this update box as it is without trying to be witty as well. Why am I updating so much at the moment? I must have something else to do, right? Even if it is just lie down in my pit of hideousness and sleep?
(Or fantasize about Ken, of course. There's never a wrong time to do that... well, not really, anyway, though I have chosen some very strange moments to drift off into a daydream of Ken, I admit. or, more precisely, of Youji and Ken. Kissing behind the shop counter. Which is an idea I think I need to write into a fic because it's adorable fluff.)
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Ooh, let's pick the dramatic one... A practically invisible scar just above the pelvic bone, courtesy of an emergency operation to repair a strangulated inguinal hernia when I was about seven months old. The doctors apparently didn't believe I had a hernia until it strangulated. At which point they had a surgical emergency on their hands. My parents have kept kind of closed-mouthed about it, but from a couple of comments they've made and what I know about strangulated hernias, apparently I could have died. Congenital defect; I had to have elective surgery when I was eight when the other side went.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Posters of visual rock bands and Gackt looking alarmingly pretty, a series of Weiss Kreuz pencil boards, a poster print of Roy Lichtenstein's Drowning Girl, a series of postcards of random places in Japan that I bought just because they were pretty, many, many other postcards also bought or picked up at random either because I liked them or thought they were funny. I have a particular fondness for postcard reproductions of the front of pulp fiction novels.
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Small silver flip phone thingum with a camera. And a tare panda cell phone strap, because I like tare pandas and live near enough to Chinatown to be able to go buy things like that. It looks pretty neat, but I can't get a signal in my bedroom.
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Visual rock, j-pop, anime music (okay, Weiss Kreuz image songs. Happy now?), the occasional classical CD, random Western pop and rock songs which just kind of attached themselves to me, jazz, soundtracks from movies and anime and oh my God, the secret shame, the Final Fantasy games.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Vaguely. It was around about seven in the evening, I think. I'd have to ask my parents to know for sure. But I should be a day older than I am. I was meant to be born - well, induced - on June 5, but it got cancelled due to an emergency case coming in, so it had to be done the day after. Good God, I was born by the vagaries of a theater list; is it any wonder I ended up in healthcare? Doomed, I tell you. DOOMED.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To get a job in an operating theater. A new computer. A kitty. If I'm only allowed one of them then I'll have the kitty please.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My dad, mainly. I’m really looking forward to going home for Christmas, because I want to see him stupid bad.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
I have no idea? Well... aside from my brain, which deeply worries me and I want to see kept safe and protected above all else, probably my mp3 player, pathetically enough. I take it everywhere. Though if anyone tried to steal my current writer's notebook, I would probably beat them to death with it.
9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
The smell after rain.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Not even remotely; I'm very much a night owl. I haven't been scared of the dark for years, and remember being mildly annoyed as a little girl by the fact I slept in the same room as my younger brother, and he wanted the light kept on/the door open while he was asleep when I was quite content to bring on the darkness.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Anything which smells kind of watery. I know, weird thought, but I like things that evoke the scent of the sea. I love the sea. Though sharp fruity smells (citrus, melon, that kind of thing) are nice as well. I don't really like heavy perfumes, though I wear a white musk on the way home from work. Got in the habit of that when I was working on a colorectal ward and needed to kill the hospital smell dead.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
... opposite sex? Damn these heterocentric memes! Long, thick, dark, well-cared-for hair, on absolutely anybody. Though it doesn't necessarily have to be long. But all the rest are a must. Especially the dark bit. I'm basically turned off by blondes.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
I don't want to get married and right now I can't stand the thought of being proposed to by anyone, anywhere, ever. There's no romance in my soul. Well, not much.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Energy drinks! Or rather: original Lucozade. Mm. I should have bought some last time I was at the shops. I drink it all the time when I'm at work and guess I should just accept the fact my body craves it.
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Ham, mushrooms and green peppers. I want a pizza right now, but the phones aren't working. Crap.
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
A pizza from the Pizza Hut delivery place on the high street. Damn you, Question 18. Or... okay, maybe a steak, with green salad and white bread.
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I have absolutely no idea? I don't make a habit of making people mad. But the last person who I know for sure I pissed off utterly irretrievably would probably be the friend who kept guilt tripping me for having, oh my God, other people I liked spending time with and with whom I got terminally, fatally pissed a month or so back.
20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Tourist-level German. I wish I was better at it, honestly. I love German; I'm just not very good at it. Some day, she says, I will try and get back to learning German and do it properly this time.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
Ah, now that would be the strangely deformed but cute stuffed animal the members of my mother's tutor group clubbed together to buy when she went on maternity leave. So... that would be about half a deformed teddy.
WAIT HANG ON A MINUTE WHAT HAPPENED TO 22-27?
I got this from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kay_cricketed and she'd eaten them already... for which I thank her because gah, 100 questions? I'm guessing she ate 10 and 12 as well. ♥
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
If I was going to fall in love with someone I don't see how I could stop myself falling in love with them, so I honestly don't see how the fact they were leaving could make the damndest bit of difference. It wouldn't exactly be the most ideal state of affairs, but hey, some relationships were never meant to last. That doesn't mean they're not worth having, though.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Write it down.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
Nineteen.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes. ♥ Most definitely and assuredly. There's just something about dark hair which does the proverbial It to me in a way blondes never, ever manage. Actually, I think I answered this question a while back by accident, so I'll violently and aggressively second it here.
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
My parents.
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Being guilt tripped or not allowed to apologize. People who make a habit of doing that. I absolutely hate it when people refuse to let others apologize, or act like they should somehow be doing something more. Look, I'm wrong. I'm sorry. I've said i'm wrong and I'm sorry. You want more than an admission of guilt and an apology? That drives me round the proverbial bend like nobody’s business. Oh, and when I'm angry with someone, and the person I'm angry with won't even have the decency to get angry back. Fucking impossible serene bastards! Makes me want to break their necks!
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF [your country]?
Yeah. I've not traveled extensively, but I've been to Ireland (the republic, that is), France, Belgium, Germany and the Netherlands. I want to go back to Germany. I also want to go to America, Canada (I'd like to live and work in Canada for a year or so, actually) and Japan, because it's full of shiny Japanese things.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
The heat. Makes me wilt and moan pitifully. Looks like I'm doomed to spend my life in temperate climes. Maybe it's no wonder I want to move to Canada?
37. FIRST JOB?
I worked as a waitress in a burger bar when I was sixteen. I was - I'll be brutally honest here - absolute shit at it and ended up getting fired for bad timekeeping. Weirdly enough, I'm an utter freak for punctuality now and if I worked with myself aged sixteen my God, I'd want to punch me!
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Never. Ah, the joys of a socially stunted adolescence.
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Thinking about fanfiction.
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I've never really thought about it. Uh... lipo? I dunno, I'm really not big on the idea of plastic surgery, largely because everyone who's ever had it seems to come out the other end looking like a shop dummy. Ask me again in fifteen years' time and I'll probably be able to answer.
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Because everyone else had done it. Yes, I would jump off a cliff ifvermachtnis and kay_cricketed had done it first.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Apparently I have good social skills. Pretty much all my mentors have commented on how good I am with people. Which amazes me, because I spent most of my adolescence sitting by the wall by myself being told by my teachers that I needed to contribute more and had all the social skills of a rock. I don't know when I turned into a people person, but I do appear to have done so.
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Not a lot. I drink extremely infrequently.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A new computer. I have absolutely zero chance of getting it, but I really do think I need one.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
I don't want children, largely because the thought of what I'd have to go through to get them absolutely appals me. If I do decide I want kids, I'll start fostering or adopt one. There are more than enough kids out there already without me getting in on the act.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Three possibilities. One: I could be named after my great-grandmother. Two: a friend of my mother's from school and college had the same forename I do. Or Three: I could be named after a character from a Jane Austen novel, my mother being an English teacher and very fond of Austen. Those who want a clue as to what my birth name is: one of the characters in Emma has the same forename as me. And it's not Emma.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
No. I think stars are inordinately and hellishly prettiful, but I have never wished on one. That's too Disney for words, my dear.
48. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE FINGER?
None of them. I don't like my hands; I think they're ugly.
49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
After the whole Incident On The Number 2 Bus thing.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Not really. A lot of people say it's nice, but I just can't see it. It just looks like a borderline-illegible mess to me. Even I can't read it sometimes. I can be sitting there typing up my bus notes, and every so often I'll have to stop and think, hang on, what the hell word is that?
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham. Well, I eat so much of the stuff it pretty much has to be. If they'd class pigs as vegetables, I'd be able to become a vegetarian with no problem. But ham and bacon foil me every time.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Biting my nails. Oversleeping. Letting my laundry build up. Fangirling over Ken on company time.
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Gah, I dunno. It really depends on how you define embarrassing. I'm kind of embarrassed by owning a Corrs CD, but in mitigation I got it for about £5 and would not have bought it at full price. Or... oh, God, the Ally McBeal soundtrack. It was on sale (£2; I wouldn't have paid any more) and it reminds me of my adolescence - I had a friend who used to play it all the damned time. I don't like the music on it at all.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I'd probably drive myself mad by being too like me. And I really wouldn't want to know about what all my irritating little quirks look like from the outside. Eek, I'd probably end up killing myself (though I would have a discussion with me about Ken first).
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Sure they matter, but my definition of 'good looks' definitely isn't Hollywood's.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I get angry, surprisingly enough. If not through a shouting match with the offending party, then talking it through with someone else - preferably an impartial third party. Get it out, clear the air, move on. I don't believe in bottling things up, simply because I tried doing that when I was an adolescent and nearly drove myself, quite literally, crazy.
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
My parents' house in Kent. It's nice to know I can go back there and I'm looking forward to going home for Christmas, but it's not really home. Home is London.
59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
I like to think of myself as cooly skeptical, but I have a horrible feeling I do.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
A stuffed panda. I still have him, though he's lost all his fur and is missing an eye and all his seams bust long ago and he's now held together by botched repair jobs and hope. I nearly lost him one Christmas when he got thrown out with the wrapping paper and noisily mourned him to such an extent that my grandfather went through the trash looking for him. They found him the night before the bin men came. Poor panda.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
This just in: the Pope, shockingly, was today discovered to be Catholic. Yes.
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
When I was in Manchester. It was kind of fun, though I was worried about breaking my glasses and probably wouldn't do it again.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Personality. It's kind of hard to explain, but all the people I've really fallen for it's always been on the grounds of personality. Which may be because both times I've been in love so far it's been with someone I met online. The lack of physical presence is... annoying, but it didn't stop me flipping for them. Looks are... well, kind of important, but I couldn't go for anyone on the basis of looks alone. If the mind's not right, I'm not interested. I want someone I can talk to first and foremost.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
My father has a few silly pet names for me which I won't share because they're rather too personal. A friend I used to write with called me lilith, lili or words to that effect. I've been online under the aliases Izumi, miyuki and kaochan, all fo which are now dead for some reason or another. I'm occasionally the white huntress. I leave anonymous reviews under all sorts of names, but am especially fond of 'Asuka II'. Normally I call myself laila. Andkay_cricketed appears to have started calling me 'Miss laila', which is cute.
68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Some of them. I couldn't get my current trainers off without unlacing them, and a number of my boots fasten with zips but if it's possible to get out a shoe without undoing the laces I'll probably do it that way.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Chocolate; I'm especially fond of ice cream with chocolate pieces in (I currently have half a tub of Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream waiting for me to attack it in the freezer). I don't like practically every other flavor out there, though I do have a weakness for sorbets.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Black. Purple. Red. Blue - well, the darker shades of all of them, anyway. I kind of like dark greens, too. And I love silver, but only in small doses.
73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
All of them, but I've run into trouble with them because there wasn't enough room for them in my mouth and there's been a bit of an issue with crowding on both sides of my top jaw. I need to go to the dentist's and get it sorted, but I don't have the money and it's damned difficult to find a dentist accepting NHS patients in London, and since it's not hurting me I'm letting it lie. I'm tooBritish poor to have good teeth.
74. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
My father. Which again is one of the kickbacks of an unpopular adoelscence. I kind of miss this one guy I used to write terrible Mary Sue infested crap with and whom I had a vague crush on when I was about sixteen, but nowhere near as much as I miss my dad. I'm going home in a few days and I can't wait.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
They've already done it. I'm slow.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Kagrra's yousai. It's on repeat because it bounces and I like that in a tune. No, I have no idea what the lyrics mean.
77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Ben and Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream, which I ate sometime last night.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My brother, I think. I'm not really sure. I don't call people very often.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
... nothing much. Depends on the person.
80. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Colchester, Essex. Technically making me an Essex girl, never mind that I don't own a pair of stilettos, never mind white ones, and speak in a manner most people label 'posh' (though not cut-glass, thank God). I have no idea what the name of the hospital was.
81. SCARIEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Honestly? Probably The Incident On The Number 2 Bus. Pathetic of me, ain't it?
82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Diet coke and vanilla: at least I'm addicted to it. But I also like passion fruit juice, red wine, champagne and milk. Oh my god, milk.
83. FAVORITE JOKE?
I don't really tell jokes. I'm far too busy snarking at everything in sight, which isn't exactly the dictionary definition of telling a joke but amuses me so inordinately I don't need jokes.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Meh. Don't really have one, though if I had to say anything it would probably be soccer. I used to play it, in a lame kind of way, though I never got to join any teams. I don't support a club at the moment, but that's because I'm looking for a nice little first division side I can embrace to my heart and adore for their smallness, because that's where my soccer-supporting roots are and too many big clubs have no soul. I like cricket, too.
85. HAIR COLOR?
Right now? 'Cosmic blue' according to the label on the hair dye box, which basically means it's black. Naturally, indiscriminate mouse. Which is why I dye my hair black.
86. EYE COLOR?
Gray. Only there's a brownish-goldish ring around the pupils. If I'm wearing the right clothes they look green, but they're really gray. Which is awfully Mary Sueish of me.
87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Yes. Narrow ones, with a sort of gray-purple frame. And they're titanium, so not only are they strong (which I need) but they're very light, too. The opticians had a deal on them and I got the whole deal, lenses and all, for £99.
88. SIBLINGS?
One. A younger brother. He's 21, worries me inordinately in his sheer directionlessness because that's what older sisters have to do, and now looms in my mind as about twice my size, though I'm not that short. But damn, wasn't he smaller than me once upon a time?
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
Probably September or October. I love the start of autumn, but living in the city I miss seeing it really happen the way I used to when I lived in Kent.
90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Not really. I tried it, but it didn't do anything for me.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
I caught a bit of a program about some singer from a boy band my brother used to like when he was about eleven last night, which is weird because I don't normally watch TV much. It wasn't that interesting. I was only watching because he had a broken pelvis and they were talking about his recuperation, and I lost interest once they'd got the external fixator off.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
I really don't have one. I like the slow, anticipatory atmosphere places have on Christmas eve, though. It's just the way it feels.
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Probably. Not that I've ever met anyone I'd really want to ask out anyway. I really want to start dating accidentally. That seems a nice way to get round the whole 'asking out' problem if you ask me.
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter, probably, because I'm so useless in the heat. At least if I'm too cold I can put a sweater on. What the Hell am I supposed to do if I'm too damned hot?
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hug, please. ♥
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS
I've never really had either in the truest sense of the word. Definitely never had a one-night stand, so I can't quite see the appeal in sex for its own sake. maybe I'll change my mind when I actually start, um, having sex.
97. WHO/WHAT DO YOU SECRETLY LOVE?
... this question makes no sense. How can I tell people what I secretly love? If I tell you, then it won't be a secret, so I can't secretly love it any more. Moving on...?
98. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU MACKED IT WITH IN THE PAST YEAR?
None. I don't know what 'macking' is.
99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
Currently? Um, I seem to keep rereading bits of a novel called English Passengers, which for some reason I find terribly and hopelessly addictive (I have this terrible habit of reading novels out of order). The last thing I read, though, was part of Larry Kramer's Faggots, which had me from the first line and is stupid funny. Though I really don't know why I bought it.
100. WHERE DO YOU WORK?
At various hospitals in Camden and Islington. I'm a student nurse. What I want is a little position to call my own that I can really get to grips woth... hopefully soon, hey?
Well, that took about five million times longer than I thought it would. Still, at least it's done.
... I am so glad there weren't 100 questions after all.
I feel like I've just gotten out of some kind of Livejournal exam, which is kind of-- Oh, what I I doing? laila... girl, that's a meme you're talking about there. You don't have to do it just because everyone else has. Still, it was kind of enjoyable and everyone else did it so now I feel like part of 'everyone else', which is good because I am nothing if not a lemming.
It is so cold down here. I have the horrible feeling someone's left a door open, but I don't know if I have the stamina to get up and o check. I'll go look later. Like when I've finished this post, because I can't have much more to say. Oh, except for next time I swear I'm going to stop doing memes and give you all an update with some actual substance to it.
Now I must eat, because my stomach is protesting that I haven’t eaten today, which even if I did spend most of it asleep is really not a healthy thing to do…
I would try and say something funny to bracket this hellishly long meme with, but given that it is the meme of Satan, I think this post is going to be short but long. Because honestly, I'm filling this in retrospectively and I have spent quite long enough filling out this update box as it is without trying to be witty as well. Why am I updating so much at the moment? I must have something else to do, right? Even if it is just lie down in my pit of hideousness and sleep?
(Or fantasize about Ken, of course. There's never a wrong time to do that... well, not really, anyway, though I have chosen some very strange moments to drift off into a daydream of Ken, I admit. or, more precisely, of Youji and Ken. Kissing behind the shop counter. Which is an idea I think I need to write into a fic because it's adorable fluff.)
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Ooh, let's pick the dramatic one... A practically invisible scar just above the pelvic bone, courtesy of an emergency operation to repair a strangulated inguinal hernia when I was about seven months old. The doctors apparently didn't believe I had a hernia until it strangulated. At which point they had a surgical emergency on their hands. My parents have kept kind of closed-mouthed about it, but from a couple of comments they've made and what I know about strangulated hernias, apparently I could have died. Congenital defect; I had to have elective surgery when I was eight when the other side went.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Posters of visual rock bands and Gackt looking alarmingly pretty, a series of Weiss Kreuz pencil boards, a poster print of Roy Lichtenstein's Drowning Girl, a series of postcards of random places in Japan that I bought just because they were pretty, many, many other postcards also bought or picked up at random either because I liked them or thought they were funny. I have a particular fondness for postcard reproductions of the front of pulp fiction novels.
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Small silver flip phone thingum with a camera. And a tare panda cell phone strap, because I like tare pandas and live near enough to Chinatown to be able to go buy things like that. It looks pretty neat, but I can't get a signal in my bedroom.
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Visual rock, j-pop, anime music (okay, Weiss Kreuz image songs. Happy now?), the occasional classical CD, random Western pop and rock songs which just kind of attached themselves to me, jazz, soundtracks from movies and anime and oh my God, the secret shame, the Final Fantasy games.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Vaguely. It was around about seven in the evening, I think. I'd have to ask my parents to know for sure. But I should be a day older than I am. I was meant to be born - well, induced - on June 5, but it got cancelled due to an emergency case coming in, so it had to be done the day after. Good God, I was born by the vagaries of a theater list; is it any wonder I ended up in healthcare? Doomed, I tell you. DOOMED.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To get a job in an operating theater. A new computer. A kitty. If I'm only allowed one of them then I'll have the kitty please.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My dad, mainly. I’m really looking forward to going home for Christmas, because I want to see him stupid bad.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
I have no idea? Well... aside from my brain, which deeply worries me and I want to see kept safe and protected above all else, probably my mp3 player, pathetically enough. I take it everywhere. Though if anyone tried to steal my current writer's notebook, I would probably beat them to death with it.
9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
The smell after rain.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Not even remotely; I'm very much a night owl. I haven't been scared of the dark for years, and remember being mildly annoyed as a little girl by the fact I slept in the same room as my younger brother, and he wanted the light kept on/the door open while he was asleep when I was quite content to bring on the darkness.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Anything which smells kind of watery. I know, weird thought, but I like things that evoke the scent of the sea. I love the sea. Though sharp fruity smells (citrus, melon, that kind of thing) are nice as well. I don't really like heavy perfumes, though I wear a white musk on the way home from work. Got in the habit of that when I was working on a colorectal ward and needed to kill the hospital smell dead.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
... opposite sex? Damn these heterocentric memes! Long, thick, dark, well-cared-for hair, on absolutely anybody. Though it doesn't necessarily have to be long. But all the rest are a must. Especially the dark bit. I'm basically turned off by blondes.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
I don't want to get married and right now I can't stand the thought of being proposed to by anyone, anywhere, ever. There's no romance in my soul. Well, not much.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Energy drinks! Or rather: original Lucozade. Mm. I should have bought some last time I was at the shops. I drink it all the time when I'm at work and guess I should just accept the fact my body craves it.
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Ham, mushrooms and green peppers. I want a pizza right now, but the phones aren't working. Crap.
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
A pizza from the Pizza Hut delivery place on the high street. Damn you, Question 18. Or... okay, maybe a steak, with green salad and white bread.
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I have absolutely no idea? I don't make a habit of making people mad. But the last person who I know for sure I pissed off utterly irretrievably would probably be the friend who kept guilt tripping me for having, oh my God, other people I liked spending time with and with whom I got terminally, fatally pissed a month or so back.
20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Tourist-level German. I wish I was better at it, honestly. I love German; I'm just not very good at it. Some day, she says, I will try and get back to learning German and do it properly this time.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
Ah, now that would be the strangely deformed but cute stuffed animal the members of my mother's tutor group clubbed together to buy when she went on maternity leave. So... that would be about half a deformed teddy.
WAIT HANG ON A MINUTE WHAT HAPPENED TO 22-27?
I got this from
kay_cricketed and she'd eaten them already... for which I thank her because gah, 100 questions? I'm guessing she ate 10 and 12 as well. ♥28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
If I was going to fall in love with someone I don't see how I could stop myself falling in love with them, so I honestly don't see how the fact they were leaving could make the damndest bit of difference. It wouldn't exactly be the most ideal state of affairs, but hey, some relationships were never meant to last. That doesn't mean they're not worth having, though.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Write it down.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
Nineteen.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes. ♥ Most definitely and assuredly. There's just something about dark hair which does the proverbial It to me in a way blondes never, ever manage. Actually, I think I answered this question a while back by accident, so I'll violently and aggressively second it here.
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
My parents.
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Being guilt tripped or not allowed to apologize. People who make a habit of doing that. I absolutely hate it when people refuse to let others apologize, or act like they should somehow be doing something more. Look, I'm wrong. I'm sorry. I've said i'm wrong and I'm sorry. You want more than an admission of guilt and an apology? That drives me round the proverbial bend like nobody’s business. Oh, and when I'm angry with someone, and the person I'm angry with won't even have the decency to get angry back. Fucking impossible serene bastards! Makes me want to break their necks!
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF [your country]?
Yeah. I've not traveled extensively, but I've been to Ireland (the republic, that is), France, Belgium, Germany and the Netherlands. I want to go back to Germany. I also want to go to America, Canada (I'd like to live and work in Canada for a year or so, actually) and Japan, because it's full of shiny Japanese things.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
The heat. Makes me wilt and moan pitifully. Looks like I'm doomed to spend my life in temperate climes. Maybe it's no wonder I want to move to Canada?
37. FIRST JOB?
I worked as a waitress in a burger bar when I was sixteen. I was - I'll be brutally honest here - absolute shit at it and ended up getting fired for bad timekeeping. Weirdly enough, I'm an utter freak for punctuality now and if I worked with myself aged sixteen my God, I'd want to punch me!
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Never. Ah, the joys of a socially stunted adolescence.
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Thinking about fanfiction.
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I've never really thought about it. Uh... lipo? I dunno, I'm really not big on the idea of plastic surgery, largely because everyone who's ever had it seems to come out the other end looking like a shop dummy. Ask me again in fifteen years' time and I'll probably be able to answer.
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Because everyone else had done it. Yes, I would jump off a cliff if
vermachtnis and kay_cricketed had done it first.42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Apparently I have good social skills. Pretty much all my mentors have commented on how good I am with people. Which amazes me, because I spent most of my adolescence sitting by the wall by myself being told by my teachers that I needed to contribute more and had all the social skills of a rock. I don't know when I turned into a people person, but I do appear to have done so.
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Not a lot. I drink extremely infrequently.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A new computer. I have absolutely zero chance of getting it, but I really do think I need one.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
I don't want children, largely because the thought of what I'd have to go through to get them absolutely appals me. If I do decide I want kids, I'll start fostering or adopt one. There are more than enough kids out there already without me getting in on the act.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Three possibilities. One: I could be named after my great-grandmother. Two: a friend of my mother's from school and college had the same forename I do. Or Three: I could be named after a character from a Jane Austen novel, my mother being an English teacher and very fond of Austen. Those who want a clue as to what my birth name is: one of the characters in Emma has the same forename as me. And it's not Emma.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
No. I think stars are inordinately and hellishly prettiful, but I have never wished on one. That's too Disney for words, my dear.
48. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE FINGER?
None of them. I don't like my hands; I think they're ugly.
49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
After the whole Incident On The Number 2 Bus thing.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Not really. A lot of people say it's nice, but I just can't see it. It just looks like a borderline-illegible mess to me. Even I can't read it sometimes. I can be sitting there typing up my bus notes, and every so often I'll have to stop and think, hang on, what the hell word is that?
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham. Well, I eat so much of the stuff it pretty much has to be. If they'd class pigs as vegetables, I'd be able to become a vegetarian with no problem. But ham and bacon foil me every time.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Biting my nails. Oversleeping. Letting my laundry build up. Fangirling over Ken on company time.
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Gah, I dunno. It really depends on how you define embarrassing. I'm kind of embarrassed by owning a Corrs CD, but in mitigation I got it for about £5 and would not have bought it at full price. Or... oh, God, the Ally McBeal soundtrack. It was on sale (£2; I wouldn't have paid any more) and it reminds me of my adolescence - I had a friend who used to play it all the damned time. I don't like the music on it at all.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I'd probably drive myself mad by being too like me. And I really wouldn't want to know about what all my irritating little quirks look like from the outside. Eek, I'd probably end up killing myself (though I would have a discussion with me about Ken first).
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Sure they matter, but my definition of 'good looks' definitely isn't Hollywood's.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I get angry, surprisingly enough. If not through a shouting match with the offending party, then talking it through with someone else - preferably an impartial third party. Get it out, clear the air, move on. I don't believe in bottling things up, simply because I tried doing that when I was an adolescent and nearly drove myself, quite literally, crazy.
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
My parents' house in Kent. It's nice to know I can go back there and I'm looking forward to going home for Christmas, but it's not really home. Home is London.
59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
I like to think of myself as cooly skeptical, but I have a horrible feeling I do.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
A stuffed panda. I still have him, though he's lost all his fur and is missing an eye and all his seams bust long ago and he's now held together by botched repair jobs and hope. I nearly lost him one Christmas when he got thrown out with the wrapping paper and noisily mourned him to such an extent that my grandfather went through the trash looking for him. They found him the night before the bin men came. Poor panda.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
This just in: the Pope, shockingly, was today discovered to be Catholic. Yes.
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
When I was in Manchester. It was kind of fun, though I was worried about breaking my glasses and probably wouldn't do it again.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Personality. It's kind of hard to explain, but all the people I've really fallen for it's always been on the grounds of personality. Which may be because both times I've been in love so far it's been with someone I met online. The lack of physical presence is... annoying, but it didn't stop me flipping for them. Looks are... well, kind of important, but I couldn't go for anyone on the basis of looks alone. If the mind's not right, I'm not interested. I want someone I can talk to first and foremost.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
My father has a few silly pet names for me which I won't share because they're rather too personal. A friend I used to write with called me lilith, lili or words to that effect. I've been online under the aliases Izumi, miyuki and kaochan, all fo which are now dead for some reason or another. I'm occasionally the white huntress. I leave anonymous reviews under all sorts of names, but am especially fond of 'Asuka II'. Normally I call myself laila. And
kay_cricketed appears to have started calling me 'Miss laila', which is cute.68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Some of them. I couldn't get my current trainers off without unlacing them, and a number of my boots fasten with zips but if it's possible to get out a shoe without undoing the laces I'll probably do it that way.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Chocolate; I'm especially fond of ice cream with chocolate pieces in (I currently have half a tub of Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream waiting for me to attack it in the freezer). I don't like practically every other flavor out there, though I do have a weakness for sorbets.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Black. Purple. Red. Blue - well, the darker shades of all of them, anyway. I kind of like dark greens, too. And I love silver, but only in small doses.
73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
All of them, but I've run into trouble with them because there wasn't enough room for them in my mouth and there's been a bit of an issue with crowding on both sides of my top jaw. I need to go to the dentist's and get it sorted, but I don't have the money and it's damned difficult to find a dentist accepting NHS patients in London, and since it's not hurting me I'm letting it lie. I'm too
74. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
My father. Which again is one of the kickbacks of an unpopular adoelscence. I kind of miss this one guy I used to write terrible Mary Sue infested crap with and whom I had a vague crush on when I was about sixteen, but nowhere near as much as I miss my dad. I'm going home in a few days and I can't wait.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
They've already done it. I'm slow.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Kagrra's yousai. It's on repeat because it bounces and I like that in a tune. No, I have no idea what the lyrics mean.
77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Ben and Jerry's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream, which I ate sometime last night.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My brother, I think. I'm not really sure. I don't call people very often.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
... nothing much. Depends on the person.
80. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Colchester, Essex. Technically making me an Essex girl, never mind that I don't own a pair of stilettos, never mind white ones, and speak in a manner most people label 'posh' (though not cut-glass, thank God). I have no idea what the name of the hospital was.
81. SCARIEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU?
Honestly? Probably The Incident On The Number 2 Bus. Pathetic of me, ain't it?
82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Diet coke and vanilla: at least I'm addicted to it. But I also like passion fruit juice, red wine, champagne and milk. Oh my god, milk.
83. FAVORITE JOKE?
I don't really tell jokes. I'm far too busy snarking at everything in sight, which isn't exactly the dictionary definition of telling a joke but amuses me so inordinately I don't need jokes.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Meh. Don't really have one, though if I had to say anything it would probably be soccer. I used to play it, in a lame kind of way, though I never got to join any teams. I don't support a club at the moment, but that's because I'm looking for a nice little first division side I can embrace to my heart and adore for their smallness, because that's where my soccer-supporting roots are and too many big clubs have no soul. I like cricket, too.
85. HAIR COLOR?
Right now? 'Cosmic blue' according to the label on the hair dye box, which basically means it's black. Naturally, indiscriminate mouse. Which is why I dye my hair black.
86. EYE COLOR?
Gray. Only there's a brownish-goldish ring around the pupils. If I'm wearing the right clothes they look green, but they're really gray. Which is awfully Mary Sueish of me.
87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Yes. Narrow ones, with a sort of gray-purple frame. And they're titanium, so not only are they strong (which I need) but they're very light, too. The opticians had a deal on them and I got the whole deal, lenses and all, for £99.
88. SIBLINGS?
One. A younger brother. He's 21, worries me inordinately in his sheer directionlessness because that's what older sisters have to do, and now looms in my mind as about twice my size, though I'm not that short. But damn, wasn't he smaller than me once upon a time?
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
Probably September or October. I love the start of autumn, but living in the city I miss seeing it really happen the way I used to when I lived in Kent.
90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Not really. I tried it, but it didn't do anything for me.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
I caught a bit of a program about some singer from a boy band my brother used to like when he was about eleven last night, which is weird because I don't normally watch TV much. It wasn't that interesting. I was only watching because he had a broken pelvis and they were talking about his recuperation, and I lost interest once they'd got the external fixator off.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
I really don't have one. I like the slow, anticipatory atmosphere places have on Christmas eve, though. It's just the way it feels.
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Probably. Not that I've ever met anyone I'd really want to ask out anyway. I really want to start dating accidentally. That seems a nice way to get round the whole 'asking out' problem if you ask me.
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter, probably, because I'm so useless in the heat. At least if I'm too cold I can put a sweater on. What the Hell am I supposed to do if I'm too damned hot?
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hug, please. ♥
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS
I've never really had either in the truest sense of the word. Definitely never had a one-night stand, so I can't quite see the appeal in sex for its own sake. maybe I'll change my mind when I actually start, um, having sex.
97. WHO/WHAT DO YOU SECRETLY LOVE?
... this question makes no sense. How can I tell people what I secretly love? If I tell you, then it won't be a secret, so I can't secretly love it any more. Moving on...?
98. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU MACKED IT WITH IN THE PAST YEAR?
None. I don't know what 'macking' is.
99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
Currently? Um, I seem to keep rereading bits of a novel called English Passengers, which for some reason I find terribly and hopelessly addictive (I have this terrible habit of reading novels out of order). The last thing I read, though, was part of Larry Kramer's Faggots, which had me from the first line and is stupid funny. Though I really don't know why I bought it.
100. WHERE DO YOU WORK?
At various hospitals in Camden and Islington. I'm a student nurse. What I want is a little position to call my own that I can really get to grips woth... hopefully soon, hey?
Well, that took about five million times longer than I thought it would. Still, at least it's done.
... I am so glad there weren't 100 questions after all.
I feel like I've just gotten out of some kind of Livejournal exam, which is kind of-- Oh, what I I doing? laila... girl, that's a meme you're talking about there. You don't have to do it just because everyone else has. Still, it was kind of enjoyable and everyone else did it so now I feel like part of 'everyone else', which is good because I am nothing if not a lemming.
It is so cold down here. I have the horrible feeling someone's left a door open, but I don't know if I have the stamina to get up and o check. I'll go look later. Like when I've finished this post, because I can't have much more to say. Oh, except for next time I swear I'm going to stop doing memes and give you all an update with some actual substance to it.
Now I must eat, because my stomach is protesting that I haven’t eaten today, which even if I did spend most of it asleep is really not a healthy thing to do…
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Ah, I love Americanisms. There's always a new one to wonder at.
There's not too many cliffs around these parts, so you don't have to worry about me doing that. Don't know about
It's nice to come across someone who doesn't know the name of the hospital they were born in too- I have no idea where I was really born and everyone always thinks that's really weird. Of course, everyone always thinks it's really weird that I was born in Europe. I cannot tell you how many people ask me if I'm American or not.
Please, people- I talk with a Southern/Oklahoma accent, albeit a light one. You do not pick that up in Germany.
Totally with you on brunettes. I don't like blonde hair. I do sort of like red, but much prefer dark brunettes. ♥
Go eat! It's the best thing. Ever. Which reminds me that I have a pound of bacon in the fridge that I need to use up before Friday morning, otherwise it'll sit in the fridge for a month and go bad. A pound is... a lot. Mmm. ♥
It's a wonder I don't weigh 300 pounds. For all the food I eat, you'd think I'd gain some weight or something. Maybe I just have a freaky metabolism.
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