I really should stop whining about this, but I just can't seem to make myself do it - I really do not want to go into work today.

I apparently only have 2 shifts left. If it turns out I've screwed up the hours I DON'T FUCKING CARE - this placement was meant to finish like a month ago and I start again in a couple weeks' time - I don't see how it matters when we only need to make up the hours so we've done the 2500 practice hours we nmeed for qualification. If I'm doing another 400-hour placement, I'm going to be over that liike whoa. I don't see how it matters under the circumstances and even if it does, you know something? I really don't give a fuck!

Because I'm just too tired. I just want my life back, even if it's only for a week or so. I just want out of that atmosphere, away from those people. They're none of them particularly horrible, but I can't seem to stop myself from despising them all.

(Well, except this one Japanese nurse I totally have a crush on. Not that I could tell her that.)

So. Two shifts to go. Even so, I do not want to have to do them. I just want out of this goddamn ward. Badly. I haven't felt this burned out and uninspired about dragging myself out of bed and into work since I was working in the goddamn supermarket. I haven't felt this utterly apathetic since I dropped out of university. I want this, I reaslly do, but why does it have to be so goddamn difficult?

I seriously hate it there. I really wish I could stop whining about this, but I hate that ward. It's bringing me down and stressing me out. It's making everything seem like too much of an effort. I can't write - well, it's more like I can't settle to it unless I really have nothing else to do. I can't concentrate when I'm at work. I can't seem to do anything much except beat off deeply suspect and OOC SchuKen badfic plot bunnies involving that frackin' collar, rather more kink than Ken would know how to spell let alone what to do with and Stockholm Syndrome - why is all the Ken-Hidaka-with-Stockholm-Syndrome porn such crap? - which I blame on this one goddamn awful Youji x Aya fluffy hooker!porn fic with a side order of collaredsexslave!Ken. I'm even behind with weiss_badfics, which depresses me like whoa.

Fandom is the one joy in my life right now. I AM NOT EVEN KIDDING.

Please, please, let the next place be different. Because if it isn't, I'm going to have to seriously rethink what it is I want to do with my life since I'm obviously totally not cut out for nursing after all no matter how much I might like it, and right now I'm really not up to that level of self-analysis.

Dear Suethors, specifically the Weiss Kreuz bunch, though this rather specific rant could probably be applied equally well to any fandom in which random Mary Sues are prone to muscling their way onto any canonically all-male group or team;

Will you stop it with the 'OMG UR LYKE A GURL!!!1!11!!eleventy!' moments?

Please, sweet Suethor. I beg, entreat and implore you, if you really must write your hideous fics in which Weiss gain a Neat New Female Teammate by some random act of purest plot contrivance, stop it with the inevitable moment when, the minute she shows her no doubt sickeningly beautiful face, one or a handful or all four of them are immediately Shocked and Amazed by the fact that she has girl parts. Or, in Fanbrat, 'curves in all the right places'.

Why? Well, first off, it's getting overdone.

Seriously overdone.

I've seen this scene (and, I'm not kidding, it's almost the EXACT SAME SCENE every time) in just about every other Mary Sue Joins Weiss fic out there. I could write this scene myself and probably do a better job of it. And so could you. Usually, it runs thusly:

Weiss find out by some plot contrivance - usually said plot contrivance is called 'Manx' - that they're going to be getting a new member who shows up about five seconds later with all her luggage. Various Weiss members express amazement, shock or outrage at the thought of being expected to work with someone who possesses breasts. The Sue answers their protests with a comprehensive verbal smackdown about how girls are totally just as good as boys, a graphic demonstration of her leet skillz likewise or, if the readers are really unlucky, both.

Every. Single. TIME.

And, needless to say, it is boring. Really boring. It's only so interesting to watch the stuffing get kicked out of the same old straw man argument again and again courtesy of obnoxious arguments from entitled OCs which aren't so much persuasive defenses of equal opportunities and feminist principles as bratty whines of the 'OMG SHUT UP I'M LYKE TEWTALLY KEWL AND NOT GURLI AT ALL ZOMG' school.

Which, Suethors (and this may come as a bit of a surprise to you) looks almost as misogynistic as the canon characters saying 'you can't play because you got boobies' does. Mary Sue's argument that she should be allowed to go to boys' camp usually isn't 'shut up, women are up to this job'. It's 'shut up, I'm up to this job because I'm better than all the other girls and I totally have a tragic past so I'm tough and determined and shit, so there'.

The weird thing is, normally this is quite enough to convince her teammates.

As if that wasn't bad enough, usually in order to set up said scene, the ficcer has to take one or more of the poor boys OOC. Never mind if the guy in question wouldn't think anything of the sort about a female teammate - or, even if he did, would know better than to say it to her face. And normally, at least when we're talking about Weiss, it's Ken. Presumably because Aya (who's usually, in any case, the putative Love Interest) would never be so uncouth as to make sexist remarks, Omi's the cute one so he wouldn't have any problems working with a Sue, and Youji's still got to hit on Sue to prove that firstly, she's amazingly attractive and secondly, she's Not Like The Other Girls and won't fall for that. Which makes it Ken by default, I guess.

This never mind that, from what I've seen of series canon, Ken acts exactly the same way around most women as he does around most men. Correct me if I've missed something, Suethors, but I wouldn't have thought Ken a particularly plausible choice of sexist when nothing he does suggests he has any real issues around girls unless one counts being rather an unconventional date. Please stop turning Ken Hidaka into the misogynist he isn't. I swear, the 'jock' stereotype is just doing that boy no favors at all.

Yes, Ken might worry about a teammate's ability to defend themselves. He might be annoyed because he doesn't want any new teammate - plenty of canon proof for that. But OMG UR A GURL NO WAI? Come on. There are plenty of other reasons he, or any of his teammates for that matter, might not like to see Ms Sue and while her gender may be part of it, I don't think it'd be the prime consideration, still less all of it.

What would be? Well, Suethors, how about something like 'is this Neat New Teammate going to get me killed?'.

If you must use your Sue to stir trouble, there are plenty of things aside from her gender to object to. Try using some of those instead, please.

Or would the idea that Weiss - or any canon team or character, for that matter - possibly had a reason to fail to be immediately thrilled by the presence of your super-speshul Sue that was both completely legitimate and entirely defensible be far too revolutionary to countenance? Would it, like, totally spoil the fun or something? Would it perhaps be far too much effort to actually have your Sue defend herself against a reasonable argument against her getting involved that she couldn't get out of simply by playing the 'OMGSEXISM!' card? Maybe it would.

Finally, if I may be forgiven for getting a bit meta here, I can't see Weiss being at all surprised by the news that their Neat New Teammate is like, totally a girl. Pretty much every single other Neat New Teammate they've ever found themselves lumbered with has been a stunningly beautiful teenage girl. It's not a big deal any more, and I'm sure they can recognize a trend when they see one.